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I still find it hard to express myself. Because most of the time, I don’t even know what I want to express and how to express it. And when that happens, no one really understands what I say in the end. Expressing feelings are a difficult thing. Well, for me anyway. It’s an essential part to life though. However, how’s life supposed to be lived anyway? I always try to think that my goal in life is to be happy but seriously, is it? What happens when I’m happy? Will being happy really make me happy? Well, if you get me that is LOL. I just feel that so many things in life are complicated. And I also hate how helpless things can be but I also hate how helpless I am to everything. I think human emotions are so frustrating. This frustration is annoying too! And once again, I don’t know how to express myself. Sigh, I guess I’m the most annoyed at myself. I wish I knew what my mind thought and why it thinks like that. I think I wonder why too much. In any situation or manga, I feel like the first thing I ask is why? Why am I acting like this? Why do they act like this? And I feel like I get to understand myself better when I analyse characters in manga. I feel like I’m one step closer to understanding myself, when really, I always go back to the beginning. When I feel like I know something about myself, I somehow refute it. People are complicated. And I’m sleepy. So I’ll just end this random train of thought like this.
